Today i am back to school after being sick for a day!(: Got back my results. Not fantastic but pretty alright. Though 2 papers i missed the next grade by a bit and its all due to my careless mistake but at least my grades are improving. (: Well, its my fault so i'll accept it and remember not to make such a silly mistake again.
However, this CA1 well, a lot of things are not tested so its not a good gauge i guess. Still let me smile a bit more =PP
Generally a pleasant day at school. Contemplating if i should do my FACC tutorial today. I think i should. But i have serious doubts as to whether i would do it today eventually.
Wants to blog about some thoughts on the "心晴大动员" (Not very sure if they are the exact words)
This episode on Monday was on how a mother sacrifice a lot of time and effort for her son who is inflicted with a muscle wasting illness.
Her son was inflicted the illness when he was 15. This year he is 19. A year younger than me.
Yet he faces life optimistically and even cracked jokes at the interview. When he had an operation at 15 his mum had his hand molded for fear that she would lose him at the operating table.The mummy had it displayed on a shelf in a room.
The mum talked about how she would worry about losing him anytime as she knows the time left with him is limited. So both mother and son are very close to each other.
During the interview the mother cried. She said: Sometimes i have to pretend that I'm very strong in front of my family members so they will not see my pain. She apologizes to her daughter whom she spends very little time with and is glad that she understands. Despite facing a surmountable amount of stress she spends time keeping the house squeaky clean as she also hopes that her family will return to a nice house, and a clean abode.
I would say that she really is a very strong mother. And her son is really strong too. He told her: Smile or cry . U also have to go through a day. Why not go through it happily?
I thought about the many things i had gone through and done through my life so far. I would say whatever the family went through i may not be able to take it either.
Sometimes now, i feel as if i still want more from life. Sometimes i feel its so unfair,why is everything not going smoothly for me like it has for others. Sometimes i feel trapped. Sometimes i feel that i don't get back the love i give. Sometimes i hate all the disappointments in people i have to deal with, the jealousy people throw at me all what when i feel that i'm living on the edge of the cliff like i dun noe when i'm going to fall down.And sometimes i feel why can relationships(in general) with others be so fragile and also so why can people be so unappreciative?
But at the end of the day, i didn have it that bad. Sometimes in life to be happy its not counting who has it the best but treasuring what you have the best way u know how to.No doubt, this is no mean feat. Even i'm still trying to learn..
So No more unhappiness. Dun feel sad. Stay happy , optimistic and live life to the fullest . Even when you dun see a rainbow amidst the rains, believe that it is there. Because it is. It will always exist in your heart. (:
Already i have experienced life rather peacefully all the while. Even though there may be periods of trying times. Everyone has a different experience of life. Though there are many things that are not within control, at least your faith and optimism are still yours to have.
Been a while since i have volunteered at anything. Feel very aimless. Once mentoring is offically over for me i will go search for some other organizations to volunteer at.(: I suppose that is the thing that brings me great joy.
Truth to speak now it feels very empty and unused. No avenue to be there for others or to help. =P. Stress. x.x
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